Ponderings from the middle of the bed…

The other night I was laying on my side of the bed and thought “What am I doing?” I have slept on this side for years….”Newsflash!!! You are single and can sleep wherever you please!” So, I moved to the middle of the bed in an act of bold independence. As I laid there pondering how difficult it can be for a single parent having to shoulder it all… I drifted off to sleep….only to dream that I was on a scooter (alone) carrying a box with all the things that matter most to me in one arm, while trying to desperately drive to my destination! I woke up and found myself back on my side of the bed and laughed. Really? I guess in the depths of my heart, if I am honest, I am ready to share this crazy life (and bed) with someone. So right there from my side of the bed I invited God into the wrestling ring….

“God, you know me! You made me and you must know that I am ready to share my life with someone! What’s the deal??” He is very familiar with my honest fussiness as we wrestle quite frequently.

As I quieted down (actually wore myself out like a tired child) I heard him simply reply, “Well, why don’t you start praying for him?”

WOW. I have prayed for my children, their future spouses, friends and their needs, for my Kenya friends, clients, family members, even strangers! But somehow this has not made the list!

Okay….”Lord bless him and keep him today wherever he is. Prepare his heart to meet me (Lord knows he will need prep time to jump into this herd!) as you prepare my heart too. May he find favor in his life and work, and feel your presence surrounding him. Make your face to shine down upon him and be gracious unto him.”

Amen and you win again! I will be faithful to pray for “Him” until you give him a name!

He’s funny that way, I always challenge and invite Him into the ring, but he has the gentle right hook that always knocks me to my knees….and because of His great love for us, he creates hope that does not disappoint us….and helps us get up off the mat and back to sleep!