Back roads, short cuts, wrong turns… I always think I know the way.

As I wrote yesterday about endings and beginnings, I started to ponder where we put God’s will in the midst of all the swirling changes that occur within our lives. This morning I read something about how we too often “baptize” our will and call it God’s. I have had my PhD in that at times. Doing what I want and praying for God to bless it! The funny thing about that is, he is not fooled. He knows our thoughts, motivations and the intentions of our hearts. Why is it then, when we are seeking God’s will, we really are more “self-focused” than “God-focused”? Sure we are human, selfish and want our way. But, in the end don’t we really want to be where He wants us to be? Recently I had a conversation with the Big Guy about this subject (His will and mine, and trying to baptize the path I was on) I asked Him…

“What do You want to say to me about this situation? After all you are God and I am not. I know, I know, I can forget that at times…sorry!” (The key here is that I have to shut my mouth and be quiet to hear His response, a very hard thing for a girl like me.)

When I was finally quiet I heard Him say…

“You can continue on this path you have chosen, and I will be with you always, but I cannot use you or bless you here.”

UGH! I hate it when He is right! But as uncomfortable and sad as I was, I immediately felt a peace about the change in course. His GPS (God’s Powerful Spirit) always leads me back from being lost on the back roads, short cuts and wrong turns and directs me back to the path I need to be on. Maybe it’s the explorer in me or my mischievous nature that takes me there, because Lord do I know these back roads well. But I will always be grateful for a God who will listen to this child when I finally stop and ask for directions!

And as I yell out, “ARE WE THERE YET?” He always replies “No, we still have a few more miles to cover girl, stay the course and be blessed!”