I try to post uplifting positive encouragements everyday on my Facebook page, which by the way usually has to do with something stirring inside me. Over the years I have had many say “Thanks, for the posts! It was just what I needed!”. But this week I had a few people come up and say with a tight smile, “I am trying to find the JOY!” (I can hear the dammit that follows but is not spoken). It’s the same frustrated look and tone that David my oldest would give me when I asked him to take out the trash. Wide eyed and gritted teeth smile he responded with, “I’d LOVE to.” (dammit) …..this still puts a smile on my...
Read MoreWoke us this morning with a heavy heart and a cluttered mind. I hate to start mornings this way. As much joy as the Christmas season will bring it also will be filled with 3 surgeries for ones I hold dear, clients that need support, presents to purchase and bills to pay. The list goes on and on and is a list I won’t be giving to Santa this year, but to a loving listening God. As I got my coffee I headed to my sanctum, the sacred place on my very worn couch and sighed, “Here I am God.” Tears fell and my heart opened up. Did I say my heart was full? It was in this quiet moment when I said, “What am I to do?” He gently...
Read MoreMy big boys use the term “Man Crush” when they meet a new male friend that they bond with either through dark beers, Lonesome Dove, cigars, faith, music, food or football. I believe that it is the same crazy emotions that we feel when we are “falling in love”. You know that euphoric exciting feeling when you are around a particular someone new who brings a great new energy into your world. They get all giddy about this new found bond, especially my alpha oldest. There are only a few that can make us feel this way so when we find them they become priceless treasures in our souls. Well, I have a new “Author Crush”. I just read a book by...
Read MoreSo…. this afternoon I heard Grace in the living room crying while working in my bedroom. I walked out thinking “This smells of BOY”. You see we live next to two boys that Jackson and Grace play with EVERY afternoon. Football in the street, basketball in the driveway, Nerf wars, fights with the hoses…the list goes on and on. And I have to say Grace hangs well with the boys, a formidable player and would be defined as a tomboy in as much as her play and dress. We struggle over looking more like a girl , after 4 boys do you blame me? I know, I know I was a tomboy too, I just thought pigtails and bows would be fun after years of baseball caps and...
Read MoreThis week has been one of those really crazy weeks. Yes, I know the saying, “It is not enough to be busy; so are the ants. The question is: what are we busy about?” Well…Everything this past week. All I know is it is Sunday and my soul is desperately running a 10K trying to catch up with the fast pace of my life this past week. Sabbath. Still in jammies trying to decide whether to get dressed and go to worship or do I just STOP and do NOTHING. Breathe. As I quiet myself I can feel a bit anxious and tearful, it’s almost like all that I have carried and held in over the week is now ready to bubble out. Or maybe it’s because my neighbors, who...
Read MoreMental lint is the “stuff” that drifts around my head, the tiny bits of thoughts that bounce in and out throughout the day. At times I need to clean it out so that I run more efficiently, like my dryer does when I remember to remove the crud. To make a clean sweep without losing the important stuff. If it’s build up from little 2 minute tasks that need to be done …. I try to follow Nike’s rule and “JUST DO IT”. It is easy and feels great to get that kind of lint out! We also can have the build up from the “theys” in our life. What would “they” think? “They” do? “They” say? Lint I...
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